Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Quintessential Beings v.2

Today marks the first day I would not be seeing her for the next three weeks of work. And I am trying to cope. Over the weekend after she had told me what I meant to her, we discussed this. That she plans to take the CCNP since she's already CCNA certified. It will increase her market value so she can venture into a better work offer with better pay. Not that she isn't making a huge double digit salary, but this is better for her. For us, like she said. Her classes start every Saturday for ten saturdays beginning February. That means only Sunday to be together. Earlier today, it was sinking in that I'm the least of her list. I said I will understand. This is me, adjusting to it. This is me, making my way thru understanding and weaving thru reasons. I will stay. As I told her last Sunday after her declaration, I am her number one fan, front row with pompoms. And again, this is me keeping the promise. Its never an easy to do. To sacrifice one more day of just the two days you squeeze in being together. One thing I only fear is her making me feel less needed, less loved. I know she said that when she's done with this, she needs me to be there...at the end of it all. I will be, ofcourse. Is that even a question? I said, I'd do it, but I never guaranteed it was gonna be easy on my part too.  I am afterall, human. And she's part of me as I am to her.
Today, I think. Weekends used to be something to look forward to. Now, its just a weekend out of two. Call me shallow, but I'm scared of not being with her. To cut what's the only time we keep each other sanely rooted to our personal lives.
Today, its starts.

New Zodiacs???

The New Zodiac Dates Chart 2011 is given below:

Capricorn January 20- to February 16
Aquarius February 16 to March 11
Pisces March 11 to April 18.
Aries April 18 to May 13
Taurus May 13 to June 21.
Gemini June 21 to July 20
Cancer July 20 to August 10
Leo August 10 to September 16
Virgo September 16 to October 30
Libra October 30 to November 23
Scorpio November 23 to November 29
Ophiuchus November 29 to December 17
Sagittarius December 17 to January 20

I can not believe I'm going to be a GEMINI. Nothing against it, but hello! I was born Cancer....

Quintessential Beings v.1

This is probably the top weekend I've had so far. For the reason that I have heard the sweetest music from her and its not even the L word. It was the afternoon of Sunday, I was lying on her bed after a heavy lunch and she came in. Snuggled infront of me. Kissed me and sighed. I asked her what's up. She gave me the same loving look she does when there is something good in her thoughts. She told me to close my eyes. I did. She cupped my face in between her hands, kissed my forehead, cheeks and lips and said: "You're my now. You're my tomorrow. You're my future." After she said those, I could not help but feel like being swept into a torrent of emotions. I was so happy if that is an understatement, then so be it. I opened my eyes and smiled. All I could do is stare at her. Smile and just stare. These are the rare moments I couldn't say anything. I was indeed, speechless. Speechless.

I kissed her. We kissed and it felt so damn good.